I am sitting here at my desk (at home, thank goodness), barely able to hold myself up. I have just finished working out. I am on Level 2 of Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred. You would think that a 25 minute workout wouldn't be that bad. I am literally crawling out of the room when I'm done. And I work out 5-6 days a week.
On the upside, I have lost about 6 pounds so far (since the end of January)!
I am at a much better place than I was last Friday (last post). I took the weekend to step back from everything and get a new perspective. And I did. I came back to work on Monday refreshed and ready to face the problems again.
It has been a good week, productive, fairly low stress. Although I have been at work from 7:30am until about 6pm almost every day this week. I also bring work home...so that's another 2 hours or so of work at night. 12 hours of work every day plus trying to find time to workout, shower, eat dinner, clean the apartment, and work on wedding plans...I'm pretty exhausted. But all this work WILL pay off because my parents are coming down TOMORROW!! I have been working hard so that I won't have any school work to do this weekend. I will be able to leave work on Friday afternoon and not think about anything school-related until 7:30am on Monday morning. Hallelujah. :)
This weekend's goal: To find a wedding dress.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Friday, February 19, 2010
Beginning
Today has been the most frustrating day of 2010 thus far.
My name is Christy. I am the child of the Creator of the universe and the Savior of my soul. I am the daughter of the most wonderful parents in the world. I am the sister of the most awesome twins you'll ever meet. I am the fiancee of the most incredible man I have ever met, who also happens to be my best friend. I am a very, very lucky girl.
I am also many other things. I am a math teacher at Davidson County Community College. I am a piano player, guitar player, banjo player (albeit not a very good one), and singer. I am a member of the Lexington Choral Society. I am a nerd (and love it). I am a cat lover (though I am very allergic). I am a big fan of Jillian Michaels and Billy Blanks. I am a music enthusiast. I am a lover of old movies. I am a list-maker. I am a perfectionist.
Of all the things that I am, I am still -- as my blog title states -- a problem yet unsolved. Please indulge my nerdiness as I attempt to explain my analogy.
I love math. I can't get away from it. It floods my mind, entices me with its challenges. A good math problem will take you through many emotions. You begin the problem with mixed emotions: anxiety because you are not sure how you will solve the problem, excitement for the challenge that awaits you, and confidence that you will succeed in finding the solution.
As you move along, one logical step after another, your mind works tirelessly to recapture all of those rules you have learned along the way. Every math class you have ever sat through proves useful in this journey. You revel in how all of it has finally come together.
Then it happens. You're stuck. You stare at the page, mind blank, utterly confused. Your confidence slips. Maybe I'm not cut out for this, you think. Maybe I'm not as good as I thought, as everyone thought. You get frustrated. You want to throw it all out the window. You cry. You scream. You rummage through your notes and textbook, searching frantically for some clue. This doesn't look like anything you've seen before. You become nervous, scared, unsure.
This is when, as all mathematicians will say, you need a break. You need to walk away and get some distance from the problem. You're too close. Take a nap. Read a book. Watch some TV. Go for a walk. You get away, you think of other things, give your brain a rest.
Once you have recovered, you come back to the problem -- now with fresh eyes. Something amazing happens. Your new perspective gives you clarity. Of course, it's right there! You know exactly how to proceed. You finish the problem, circle your answer, sit back in your chair, and sigh. Accomplishment. Joy. A smile. You can hardly contain yourself. You feel like Newton, Einstein, one of those other geniuses.
This is my life. Except, I haven't solved the problem yet. I will only solve the problem on the day I meet Jesus. But I get closer every day.
Some days are filled with optimism and excitement. Other days are filled with frustration and hopelessness. Still others, with accomplishment and joy.
Today was a day of frustration.
I know this day will end. I know there are days of joy and excitement ahead of me. What I need now is a break. I need to step away from it, take a nap, go for a walk. I need new perspective.
My name is Christy. I am the child of the Creator of the universe and the Savior of my soul. I am the daughter of the most wonderful parents in the world. I am the sister of the most awesome twins you'll ever meet. I am the fiancee of the most incredible man I have ever met, who also happens to be my best friend. I am a very, very lucky girl.
I am also many other things. I am a math teacher at Davidson County Community College. I am a piano player, guitar player, banjo player (albeit not a very good one), and singer. I am a member of the Lexington Choral Society. I am a nerd (and love it). I am a cat lover (though I am very allergic). I am a big fan of Jillian Michaels and Billy Blanks. I am a music enthusiast. I am a lover of old movies. I am a list-maker. I am a perfectionist.
Of all the things that I am, I am still -- as my blog title states -- a problem yet unsolved. Please indulge my nerdiness as I attempt to explain my analogy.
I love math. I can't get away from it. It floods my mind, entices me with its challenges. A good math problem will take you through many emotions. You begin the problem with mixed emotions: anxiety because you are not sure how you will solve the problem, excitement for the challenge that awaits you, and confidence that you will succeed in finding the solution.
As you move along, one logical step after another, your mind works tirelessly to recapture all of those rules you have learned along the way. Every math class you have ever sat through proves useful in this journey. You revel in how all of it has finally come together.
Then it happens. You're stuck. You stare at the page, mind blank, utterly confused. Your confidence slips. Maybe I'm not cut out for this, you think. Maybe I'm not as good as I thought, as everyone thought. You get frustrated. You want to throw it all out the window. You cry. You scream. You rummage through your notes and textbook, searching frantically for some clue. This doesn't look like anything you've seen before. You become nervous, scared, unsure.
This is when, as all mathematicians will say, you need a break. You need to walk away and get some distance from the problem. You're too close. Take a nap. Read a book. Watch some TV. Go for a walk. You get away, you think of other things, give your brain a rest.
Once you have recovered, you come back to the problem -- now with fresh eyes. Something amazing happens. Your new perspective gives you clarity. Of course, it's right there! You know exactly how to proceed. You finish the problem, circle your answer, sit back in your chair, and sigh. Accomplishment. Joy. A smile. You can hardly contain yourself. You feel like Newton, Einstein, one of those other geniuses.
This is my life. Except, I haven't solved the problem yet. I will only solve the problem on the day I meet Jesus. But I get closer every day.
Some days are filled with optimism and excitement. Other days are filled with frustration and hopelessness. Still others, with accomplishment and joy.
Today was a day of frustration.
I know this day will end. I know there are days of joy and excitement ahead of me. What I need now is a break. I need to step away from it, take a nap, go for a walk. I need new perspective.
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